THANKSGIVING AND THE WEEK AFTER
I had a weird Thanksgiving break. For some reason, I wasn't able to get the rest and the time I needed for myself even though I was able to go away from the city and retreat into my aunt's house in New Jersey. When I was in New York City I did mostly errands: clean the bathroom, do groceries, wash my clothes, do some field work for Queens Boulevard (by travelling to Queens Boulevard!) and rehearse for scene study class.
There actually came a point during the break when I realized that I spend so much of my time getting things done that I began to feel unhappy with my current state even though when I reflect upon my life I know that I have plenty of things to be grateful for. So much so that in the first few days back into classes after Thanksgiving, I felt a certain heaviness and darkness that I often felt when I was back home and began to worry that I might be depressed.
Fortunately, I do have more emotional support in my life right now (friends, mentors, free therapy c/o Juilliard Counselling Services). Upon speaking to some of my friends, my therapist, and a trusted teacher I realized that what I'm feeling is mainly exhaustion. I just really need a real break (like the Winter break that is coming up in a few weeks after Queens Boulevard closes).
This particular weekend I did not have a lot of homework. And since I have already went up for my last scene for scene study class this semester (hooray!) I no longer had to prepare for a new scene this weekend and so I was able to take the weekend off! I decided to really just do things to take care of myself or things that made me happy. There are a couple of youtube videos I've been watching to make me feel better:
YOUTUBE videos to watch when things begin to feel rough:
A FEATURE!
Shameless plug: The Juilliard School Office of International Advisement did a feature of me for the month of December! If you're curious to read about it you can check it out here:
Regina De Vera on "Eye on Culture"
